I've been seeing a drug/alcohol counselor as ordered by the courts due to my DUI I got last summer. She diagnosed me as poly-dependent, meaning that any drug I touch I get addicted to, and I would tend to agree with that looking back on my past experiences with drugs and alcohol. She also said that in order for me to live the kind of life I want to lead and succeed in school (and life in general) I will need to eventually learn to live a life of sobriety.

I'm starting to think about what that would mean for me. Most of my good friends at college are mostly drinking friends, though I do have a few acquaintances that I see when I'm not drinking/doing drugs. I'm sort of worried that if I'm totally clean then I won't see my friends anymore because they will always be partying and I can't abstain if I'm in a partying situation because of the temtpation. I like my friends- I want to keep them. I could also make new friends, but so many people in college drink that it's hard to avoid. I guess I could always just not go to parties. That would be the logical thing to do, to remove myself from the situation.

I guess as I continue to see her we will decide how these things will go. I know that if I want to succeed in life, I will need to leave my past and old habits behind me and move forward.

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