I semi-overdosed on Darvocet last night. I had picked up a bunch when I went home on Thanksgiving break. The first night I took 3, but didn’t feel much of anything. So the next night I took 6 and was feeling pretty good. So on some crazy impulse; I took the rest of my stash, bringing my pill count for the night to 13. I was really gone after that, unable to focus on anything, keep my eyes open, etc. I got more and more fucked up as the night went on during my sleep.

Around 4 am I got up and violently puked up loads of brown crap. My stomach really hurt when I woke up and I was getting nauseous a lot, puking maybe once or twice every hour, dry heaving when I could no longer keep water down.

I talked about it online at tf and some people there concluded I probably od’d on the aspirin in the pills. Each pill had a certain amount of aspirin (darvocet is comparable to vicodin) and I took a lot so that’s probably why I am feeling so shitty today.

Either way, I want to make a change in my life. I want to start making more of an effort in school, getting to class on time, studying more, and getting assignments in on time. I need to stop smoking pot (smoked my last joint tonight, my bag is gone) and only drink moderately on Thursdays (our party night). I think I could make lots of progress in my life both academically (where I need to see improvement most) and emotionally (hopefully move toward being less depressed). I have support online and from my mom, plus I’m contemplating calling the counseling center since it’s free so I do have people to talk to and help me.

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