I'm so unhappy. Each day seems to be exactly the same- I sleep in way too much every day, almost always missing at least one class. I am failing my math class (though I am supposed to retake that next semester with a better teacher) Every day is spent focused on my weight and what I am eating. I am either b/ping (or purging meals) or half-heartedly attempting to restrict until I see the numbers on the scale go back down. I feel so lonely, even in a sea of people its as if I am the only one there.

How did this happen to me, again? I was doing so well, I had friends, I was doing okay in school, but somehow I always manage to fuck things up. I don't know if it's my depression or my ed that's doing it, or a combination of both (probably) but I need to figure out how to improve things. Or face the possibility of failing out of college. I can't let that happen; I would be letting so many people down, including myself. I need to prove to everyone that I can do it.

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