I am crushed. Omar was supposed to get out today and we were going to spend the day together, probably our last day in a long, long time since the world and my parents want us to be apart. I woke up early on a Saturday and went to retrieve him, only to find out that he is not in fact getting out today, because INS placed a hold on him for admitting he was not a legal citizen.

This totally dashes all the plans I had for us and makes me realize how dim our future really is. I don't know whats in store for him- I'm going to visit him in just under an hour to find out and also to wish him the best of luck and tell him that I'm moving on. I don't want to, but it's painfully obvious that's what I've got to do. My parents are making me choose between college and him (I was going to go behind their backs and see him on the weekends as originally planned, but that won't happen now), they are going to cut off all support if I am still with him, and now the government is interfering as well. I feel like its us against the world.

Don't they understand our love? How when we get together, everything else just melts away and all that's left is him and I, our bodies molding together, our hearts beating insistently as one. We are one.

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