I'm really sorry I kinda seemed to drop off the face of the earth there for a while but I was just too busy living life to get to a computer.

Things are kinda crazy right now -- I don't want to go into details because I hate repeating everything all the time, but I got a DUI a week or so ago, and a ticket for having a (weed) pipe on me. I was driving on xanax, vicodin, and a lot of ambien. Both tickets are 795 dollars but I'm hoping when I go to court they will drop one of the tickets; I will set up a payment plan for the tickets either way.

Omar and I are so in love, though my parents think it is a dangerous love. They feel I am too attached and misread a phone call where he was yelling in the background. My family had taken a vacation for a week, leaving me with the house, so Omar and I made ourselves quite comfortable in my home. When they returned, my mom called to yell at me for using her bath tub, and Omar was yelling in the background about it being my stepdad getting mad about the bathroom. They thought Omar was yelling at me and immediately jumped to conclusions, assuming that I was being abused.

Of course these accusations are complete bullshit, but there was no way to change their mind. Especially since Omar had to serve 2 weeks for driving w/out a license. They just don't feel he's right for me. I still want to be with him b/c I've never found someone who I click with so well and who cares about me so much, who I love so truly and with so much of my heart. We're unsure of our plans for when I go to college-- at first we were going to pretty much end things and Omar was going to move to Texas where he had a friend with a place for him to stay and a great job lined up for him. But we are so happy together that he's thinking of moving to a previous hometown 30 mins away from my college town, where he has already has roots and could find a job quickly. Then we could see each other on the weekends and he could stay in my dorms- I'm allowed stay-over visitors for up to 3 nights.

I leave for college in less than a month and I'm getting really excited. I've talked to my roommate a handfull of times and she sounds really nice, very down to earth and chill. I think we will make a good match. I went the other day with my mom and started getting the essentials for my room and it finally hit home that I really am an adult now and I'm really leaving home, going to college on my own. I'm really excited but pretty scared.

I feel like I've reached a new chapter in my life. I don't think I will be documenting it in this journal. I feel like I've evolved past this place, like this is my youth and I'm ready for adulthood. I'm not sure if I want to keep another journal yet, but if I do, I will come back and put the addy up here.

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