I'm that girl with the reputation. The one all girls love to hate, the slut that will sleep with your man right under your nose if you're not careful. I'm the girl who has no problem breaking multiple people's hearts as long as it suits her own purposes. I'm the girl who uses her body to get what she wants: drugs, compliments, the least bit of self-esteem. I'm the girl your parents told you not to hang out with, for they were worried I would get you hooked on drugs [and they were right]. I'm the girl who just can't say no.

I'm also the girl who's hurting inside, who just wants some love and affection but has been hurt so many times she doesn't know how to go about getting it the proper way. I'm the girl who does all these bad things but then goes home and cries or cuts because of it, or tries to push it to the back of her head and numb it out, forget it happened. I'm the girl who just wants to be held and made to feel appreciated. I'm that girl who wants to be with someone her own age for once, because older guys make her feel skeevy and gross now. I'm the girl who longs for a relationship, but has been used and abused so many times that she's come to expect it. I'm also the girl who learned from being used and now uses guys before they get the chance to use her. I'm the girl doing dirty things with dirty people in dirty places to get dirty drugs, not because she really wants them, but because she's compelled to obtain them anyway possible.

Think you know me yet? You still don't have the slightest idea.

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