I have a crush on a girl I work with, we'll call her J. She's really nice, spunky and cool, nice body [great boobs, slim figure], and her personality is awesome, I seriously could not ask for more. She's really quirky, and I like that about her. Like she's always kinda hyper and nuts, and I really feed off her energy. She seems like she would be really fun to hang out with. We like a lot of the same music and she introduced me to some new stuff from a band I had previously liked and forgotten about. I like her sense of style- her hair is pretty short in kind of a shaggy pixie cut, brown with caramel highlights, she wears chic little black framed glasses [most of the time, though she wore contacts the other day and was breath-taking], and she has her lip pierced and it looks good on her. Some people can't really pull it off but when I saw it on her it just made me want to suck on it while we're making out.

I really almost thought about asking her to be my Valentine yesterday, since G. is being a dick and is making a point about us only being fuck buddies by calling and asking me about a crack connection and only that. [Yeah, this pissed me off to no end because I haven't touched that shit in going on like 3 weeks so I don't know anything about the whereabouts of hookups anymore and it was rude of him to call with no other purpose besides enquiring about that] But it turns out that she had a date with an ex I think. I'm pretty sure she might be interested. She keeps finding ways to touch me, like she'll come over and pinch my sides or rub my shoulders if no one is around. We were talking about who is hot and we both mentioned girls we found attractive and I asked if she was bi or what. Her response was that she wanted to know who was interested in knowing and I said that maybe I was. And she said that she didn't try to define herself, but that she was pretty much up for anything. Cue big smile, wink and her leaving the room with a big flourish leaving me all excited, hot and bothered. So yeah, something will happen, it's just a matter of when.

Still doing good on the drug front. I still find myself wanting to do pcp but the urge for h has receded greatly. I might do mushrooms this weekend but that possibility is very small. Rolls could be in the near future but it might not be for sure and if it's not within this weekend or the next it won't be for a month or two [when I can save and buy them] Because at this point I am keeping up with putting away 30 bucks every paycheck steadily for car insurance, but now I have to pay for a 200 dollar ticket I got out of putting my car in the ditch for going too fast for conditions. I was able to put away 20 for that after buying weed and paying someone back with this paycheck. So paying for that and then fixing my car is gonna set me back a couple weeks to a month of drug fun. I'm not having any problem with being just a pothead though, and not having a car helped me to get off the crack. That's always a good thing, and I don't know if I could have really broken it any other way. So in a way I guess I'm grateful.

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