I went in to work yesterday from 5-10 and they said they had too many people. They were looking to send a lot of people home and they sent me because I didn't have a nametag. Then when I asked for a new one they said they didn't have one, which was bullshit so now I might not be able to work tonight either. They are cutting hours because of decreased sales and I only have 5 hours next week. I need to find a new job if I'm going to make any kind of money.

I didn't want to just go home so I ended up going out to G's place. It was fun. We drank expensive tequila and fucked most the night away. I was told what a freak I am once again. We talked about being bisexual because I brought up how I was flirting with a girl at school that day and he was asking when I was going to bring a girl with me to "give him a show". I said all the girls besides my friend Lena (who is 18, but only does shit with girls when drunk; a girls gone wild girl) are like 16, and that turned him off. He doesn't like underaged girls and the only reason he fucks with me is because I'm almost 18. I liked that about him because when I think back to all the way older guys I dated something about me thinks they were sick for liking me- like they really should not have. Turns out G would only date bi girls for a long time but he got out of that for a while. I still don't know what we are- I guess we're just having fun and fooling around because we toasted to a good friendship. What can I expect from him though? He's a grown man, what does he want with a young girl like me? Certainly not a relationship. I'm not even sure I'm ready for a relationship just yet anyway.

I gave Keven (the guy I was cheating on Greg with) a ride home from work cuz they let him go early too. He wanted to go to Milwaukee when he heard I was going. There was a skating thing going on and he wanted to go breaksk8. I didn't want to take him because I have a hard enough time getting there with directions from G without worrying about stopping anywhere to pick up anybody else. He had to work at his dad's shop in the end so it was okay. But he was all salty that I was going to see G and he was all like, "I don't want to keep you from your bf," and I was trying to tell him that he's not my bf, just someone I'm kinda seeing. He wanted to know if I was fucking him, and I didn't see how that was any of his business. Finally I was like well I used a condom so calm the fuck down. And he was like well I'm not out there fucking random girls. So then I brought up the fact that he hadn't called me in like a week and I thought he was pulling the same shit Greg had so I was just gonna do my own thing and not wait around. I think then he saw it my way because today I got a text from him asking if he could be my man. I asked if he wanted to be and left it at that. I don't know if I want a relationship right now, but if I did I don't think I'd want one with Kevin. He's too immature and goody-two-shoes for me. I wouldn't mind having him for a good fuck once in a while and to hang out from time to time but that would be about it.

In other news, I mysteriously lost two pounds overnight. I don't know what it's from. Might be from dehydration from drinking last night but I really didn't drink that much, I just got a little tipsy. I had a dentist appt. today and he asked how much soda I drink. I think he probably asked because my enamel sucks from all the purging I do. I was too afraid to ask why he asked though.

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