Still clean from rock. Today marks a full week. I really don't even want it. I got a call the other night from somebody trying to sell, but I told her I was trying to quit all that and that I couldn't get out there anyways. I was proud of myself for that, because if I tell my dealers that I'm quitting, they won't call me up and tempt me (hopefully).

So I cheated on my boyfriend a while back and now this dude won't leave me the fuck alone. It's getting really annoying. He's all trying to persuade me to dump my bf and get with him, telling me I'm never gonna do anything bad again if I'm with him, he's super clingy, etc. And he doesn't realize that him telling me I'm not going to do anything bad with him is defintely a turnoff. I'm trying to quit rock but I really don't want to be a goody two-shoes. I still want to smoke pot and drink and take the occassional roll or 2cE sugarcube (which I will hopefully be able to get a hold of tonight, if I can find a ride and get a hold of the person selling)

Really hungover today, I drank so much last night. Didn't black out until way at the end, which is an accomplishment for me. I was surprised at how much was gone though. We got a huge bottle and more than half is gone. I know I didn't drink it all myself but I probably had most of it. I remember seeing double and drink-and-dialing (I hate when I do that, leaves too many people I have to call back in the morning to apologize to). I've puked like three times today, two because I felt sick and once because I thought I was gonna be sick and didn't want to be so I helped it along. Lunch came up so I was okay with it. I rarely puke involutarily anymore. If I feel nauseous then I just help it along because it's better than it coming out violently on its own.

I'm sure everyone really wanted to know that, right?

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