Since my last entry all hell broke loose. My stepdad discovered a baggie of baking soda and two spoons burned on the bottom from cooking coke up into crack. He knew what it was for and I was yelled at severely. I said it was from a friend of a friend and I hadn't known what it was, that they just asked if they could put something in my trunk and then they forgot it. My mom believed me; my stepdad didn't. Nonetheless, my car is now gone until the first of December, and I can't even drive it to school. That really sucks seeing as how I'm a senior this year... I really need to drive to school. How humiliating would it be to walk to school at this age?

In other news, my big black boyfriend is MIA. I went on vacation for a few days and that was all it took for us to lose touch. His cell is broken so I have to wait for him to call me, and he always calls restricted, so it's very hard to get in touch with him unless I'm literally waiting around for his call. So I'm pretty much counting us as over. The only good thing about this is that I haven't smoked crack in about a week. He did try to contact me today while I was at work though; there was a message on my phone today saying he'd call back when he got to town. Last I heard he was in Illinois with a friend's car that broke down and was trying to find a way to get it fixed... but that was days ago.

I've gained weight since stopping smoking. Obviously that would happen, but it didn't help that I went on vacation right after I quit. We went out to eat for every meal and all of it was fattening. I gained like six pounds at first, then I dropped like two, so now I'm around 113. Still feels really huge to me after being a steady 107-108. I need to lose weight before senior pictures and school. That gives me like 4-5 days. Not a lot of time. I need to get my ass in gear for sure.

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